Another new year

So a new year within an already new year has rolled in and yet no achievable new years resolutions have been made but change is constant so I'll be lazy (some things don't change?) and depend on that to make me a better man. It feels like I'm waiting for two months for the year to begin because this by far feels like the longest summer, with a few weeks of winter wedged in between, which has given me a lot of time to think.

You know at first when I was away I missed people, things... and I know it can sound shitty but I stopped missing everything from Perth, and when you don't miss anything from home it's as if there's nothing to come home to and even more reason to stay away. Right now I want to be somewhere very, very remote. Somewhere without people with their opinions that are nothing more than that, till they work out a way to stamp 'fact' on their own thoughts. I want to be somewhere without constant noise, somewhere so quiet that I can hear my own heart beat because I heard that's possible in Antarctica when I was younger.

At Big Day Out my eyes feasted on countless bikini clad girls and melanomas in the making. Oh how I love the way it's always the men that say "konnichiwa" to me, one man yesterday kept saying the one word over and over with crescendo because that's how pathetic people are, they'll say the same pointless thing over and over, faster and faster, and for fucking what, for me to turn around?

Yesterday everything sounded distant, my ears were still ringing and I could not help but suspect the people I saw as an ignorant bogan deep down. I just wanted to ask straight out, "were you or were you not at big day out yesterday? And if so, do you or do you not have the southern cross tattooed on your back?" So there you go, I don't know if that's reason enough but right now it's why I want to be anywhere but here.